Assalamualaikum.  Dear reader. It has been a year since my last entry. It has been quite a loud yet soothing year. Granted a lovely daughter, Nurul Ilham, re define the word amazing and tought me the meaning of syukr, in a big scale - bigger than whale. (Whale?)
Through my reading, I've come to a conclusion that wealth need to be  pioneered by some kind of lost, the bigger the bigger the wealth will be. So i wondered, when will I encounter any kind of losses? And voila! No explaination needed. Let me keep in for myself. May Allah grant me a lot of success after this hurtful experience.  Amin.

In my confused and tiring quest for success, sometimes it comes a time that path forward is nowhere to be found. So I took some rest and reflect all the challenges that I've been through... hadehh.. ponek la cakap omputih.. rehat sat.. ( ni la punce assignment x siap ni)

Mistakes are to be repaired, not cried over - RED -

Couple of week earlier, in a cramped toilet of Balai Islam Lundang, Kota Baharu, suddenly a smell -less idea pops up. I was answering nature calls, it was a book and PC fair. My brain is answering question of " how can i make more money, is there a business that really suit my lifestyle or do i need to sacrifice something, if i do, can i endure it? - albeit forever? what's hot on the market? would an IPO solve the investment problem? Why iguana change its color? then this question appear - if i can sell books or comic on the playstore (a download site for android user) would i then be rich? hmmm... lets do some due diligence.

- On risk to reward ratio.

. The best thing selling book online especially is a humongous reduce on production cost. Just Imagine selling thousands of books - without the need of printing it? sound good enough for me.

. No delivery expense - reducing the carbon footprint. No commission for publication company, 

.Pricing - less cost, less price. RM 5/ novel is fine for the sale of 5000 copy. 

-On hardworkship.

. SOHO should be enough to operate this company. using time wisely should produce more book for more profit - vice versa. 

. If i write the book myself it might take 5-6 month to write the book, plus 1 month to proof read etc. but I'm not a good writer, so if i manage to convinced a good writer for 60-40 profit sharing, i can produce many book under my company label, Hence - more profit.

So, how do i start? i know this seems too ambitious, even to an ambitious person like me (ambition only, no progress).

I'm taking Kiyosaki's tips seriously - take small steps, start small. so I've decide to make a website for my wife. It was planned few month earlier but never has started. This website or blog will be my guiding dogs to look for the "unclear" path of producing my books. To keep in touch with current digital lifestyle and needs. 

Yes, it's not a new thing. But since I've never budge to give any attention to it before, it will be a good start for me. And there's the first lesson for this project. Doing something familiar and be an expert on it, takes less time and energy than learning something new and be an expert at it. So I'm going back to blogspot as my blog platform rather than wordpress that I'm currently using.

The all new blog of jawablah Dr. Azizah will be reveal soon, enjoy..

Thanks -PINK-

By the time I'm writing this log, our marriage is aged 2 years and 9 month. Its a commitment blessed with happiness and all the great thing - except a child. After numerous test taken, there is no clear indicator on whats stopping us from having one - from medical point of view. Although deep inside we believe that everything that happen or not happen is only on Allah's will.

But since Allah gave us the liberty to work on what we want and pursue anything that within the limit of Islam, we decided the try the aided reproduction technique, IVF. if you want to know more about this technique, you can always browse for it. There's so many articles related to this topic. Its the non written stuff, the sacrifice of a woman in having a baby. And the torture wasn't started during this treatment. Its logged way long before this. From fellow friend and relatives that keep asking, from the age that adding the numbers and reduce the possibilities, husband that like to jokes about polygamy (joke only lah!), making the right choice and many more.

Its a nice Wednesday morning, we are referred to Hospital Kuala Terengganu on an appointment set by Hospital Kota Baharu O&G department - to see an aided reproduction expert. This is the only hospital that provide IVF service in east coast area. After a quick interview and analysis, they found out that my wife menstrual cycle is suit for the soonest folical retrieval clinic. Simply mean that we can skip a 3 month drug program just to make sure that the ovulation day suit the clinic date! But I'm sure that they have a very good reason for that and I'm glad we don't have to endure that treatment. Of course there's many things to be rearrange in the short while. Alhamdulillah we manage to sort everything out.

Then there's the mean of this posting. I would like to thank my wife - Azizah Othman, for her willingness to take most of the pain and challenges during the process. Takings plenty of drug shots directly to the stomach every night for the past 2 weeks, enduring the pain after the eggs retrieval while having her regular ear pain, the humiliation of the treatment itself and many more unexpressed downsides just to have 20% chances to have more pain in the labor room, to have the most wonderful gift of life.

If you're reading this, i just want you to know - no matter we succeed or not, now or in any time in the future. I will always love you.

Dum BaDa Dum

Welcome to my new looked - old blog. It has been stalled for quite a while due to a technical error partly and human error mostly. After finding out the solution, I've quickly made all necessary changes including changing the way it looks. And yeah, it does give me some kind of good feeling looking at it as it represent me in more delicate ways. If i can put a smell on it, i would use CK one. Its really a wonderful restart. And its not going to stop here. Changes will continue to the owner of the blog, hehehe.. for quite some times I've dream of reforming stuff around me. I really like things to be colorful, vibrant, sound nice, smell good, feel great and taste wonderful. But being human, i cant stop from having an inner world that restricting me from having all of these. Despite having a peaceful feelings towards those that have this kind of surrounding, I've failed to make any necessary change. Its like standing in the land of dullness while looking across the world of Alice in wonderland.

So, enough with the DULL speech. I,m going to cheer my life now. And should yours!

Real Steel Real Life

Arrived @ home 10 minutes ago from watching the movie Real Steel with my old time buddy, Arul. although i should write about my day @ the 60 RAJD recruit camp first, i want to record this before it got cold. Actually I'm not very interested in watching this movie due to a discouraging review from a reporter in one of our English newspaper but after watching it, i guess that the reporter must have different kind of interest in terms of movie genre.. A Charlie Chaplin, i think. here's my amateur review.
I've been studying something called NLP, it tell you how your mind works and how to manipulate it to get good results in whatever you do in life, and it modeled what we call successful behavior and how to put it in others. To date there's plenty of ways on how to put this thing to work. Basely it is used in the field of therapy, creatively it is manipulated in some crucial areas like politics and movies. It is not an easy subject to be mastered, furthermore manipulated. So for those that have manage to play around with this thing, i believed that they have invested a lot of time and effort, hence deserved to be respected. watching it for two hours convince me that it consist of plenty of creative hours just to plan the storyboard especially if my intuition doesn't lie to me that they used plenty of psychological technique such as NLP, subliminal message as the context of the story. the movie is very straight forward, easy watching and it deserve the every cent i paid for it. throughout the 2 hours it will play with your emotion, your state.. and it ended with you feeling very positive, motivated and energetic. It gives you the feeling that make you sometimes go back and re-watched it just to experience the pleasant feeling, once more. its like having 2 hours of motivation camp - that cost you RM 11.. and you cant refuse the motivation, like you refuse your facilitator and module! do our local film maker do these kind of study and produce the same result? i don't think so.
Its the money and market size factor, i heard you say. Again, I don't think so. This movie features robot as its main theme. They had done well.. in fact, too well. the graphic is so perfect that you would forget that it's just a graphic! and since you forget, it doesn't matter anymore. They had make it so well that you forget the fact that we don't live with robot... yet.. its so natural that we feel like we've already having them for years. so the robot is no big deal, you can exchange them with goldfish and still have the same good feeling. So money and market size is not the factor. What then?
Hot babes and pole dance? Nope. I cant recall any sexual scene except for couples of quick kiss and a hug. The heroin doesn't show much of her ....- i do not sure its fantastic or not, she doesn't emphasize it much-body. They proved that they can make great movies even when sex is not involved. I wonder why does the Malay movie maker struggling to prove otherwise.
in a nutshell ( I've learn this word from a MUET teaching teacher blog's.. hehehe..), there's a nut..

langswir...

kepada para suri rumah yang dah belaja menjahit langsir, edisi dibawakan khas untuk anda terutamanya yang ade lelaki pemaleh @ tak reti nak pasang rod langsir. Ikuti panduan bergambar di bawah..

1. Pastikan rumah anda mempunyai tingkap

2. Tugasan kali ini memerlukan sekaki tangga (betul ke penjodoh bilangan nih?) tukul, drill + mata untuk mengorek batu, extension wire, pembaris @ yang sewaktu dengannya.

3. Ukur dan tandakan tempat yang nak ditebut. Yang ni kene hati- hati dan gunakan sedikit imaginasi. Buat satu garisan penanda aras. boleh gunakan jarak dari aras lintol @ paras bawah baru bunga, atau apa2 sahaja yang didapati mempunyai tinggi yang sama pada semua tingkap. Lepas tu bayangkan dimana sepatutnya skru itu patut berada. pastu, ukur dan tanda.

4. Seterusnya, tebuk dengan berhati - hati, pastikan drill berada di tengah - tengah paksi x,y dan z. pastikan tempat yang nak ditebuk bukan laluan wayar elektrik atau paip air atau bersedialah untuk menerima akibatnya! hohoho...

5. Seterusnya masukkan wall plug (biasanya datang sekali dengan rod. kalau x de boleh la dapatkan di hardware tempat anda beli rod ini (biasanya beli rod kat hardware lagi murah dari kat kedai, lagi - lagi kalau dah biase beli ngan die. cume pilihan je yg tak banyak./x ade. yang ni berharga RM 6 sekaki)

6. Pastu boleh la skrukan pemegang rod itu ke dinding. Buat la untuk semua pemegang yang ada dalam set tu.

7. Dah pon shiap, boleh la bergaya di hari raya ini.. kalau x de langsir baru nak pasang pon dah nampak bergaya.. heheh..

Selamat Mencuba!

In-Situ Vs. Software

Baru - baru ni, aku ade download sejenis software Photo editor -PhotoScape - yang boleh didapati secara percuma. persepsi awal, aku ingat bende ni x le grand sangat. Al maklum la, free. tapi bile da test.. perghh.. sikit lagi nak same ngan photoshop daa.. tgk la sendiri gamba yang diambil dengan henset kamera Nokia E5 ni.. setelah diedit, menarik la jugak gambarnye. so dah jimat, boleh la aku lupekan cita - cita aku untuk membazir dengan membelu kamera DSLR.. hehe.

Murtabak Megi?

Megi - makanan ruji orang yang x de bini, ataupun ade bini tapi tak pandai masak... hahaha.. bahasa pasarnya orang bujang. Banyak memori aku ngan Megi ni. Kalau cerite boleh menitik air mate.. hehehe.. kali ni aku nak share camne gayenye nak memutasikan megi dan telur supaya menjadi murtabak. Sesuai la rasenye dengan harga murtabak yang semakin melambung tinggi. barangkali murtabak sekarang dimasak dengan minyak RON 97 @ V-Power Racing.

Sila ikuti panduan bergambar ni ye..

Bahan asas:

3 pek megi perisa sendiri punya suka

2 biji telur ayam untuk 1 pek megi - boleh gunakan calculator untuk

Rebus megi ( tanpa perasa ) sehingga kembang kuncup

Toskan

Gaul dengan perencah sehingga sebati

Masukkan telur yang telah dibelasah bersama hirisan bawang lagenda ( bawang putih dan bawang merah) serta sedikit garam. Boleh tambah daun kucai kalau suka.

goreng diatas kuali leper.

Walla! cerite pon tak guna.. Modal rm 5 boleh dapat sehingga 9 keping murtabak. Kalau jual RM1 sekeping ade la income rm 4. sekian terima kasih :D

DODOLicious

Setelah 20 tahun mengidam nak buat dodol sendiri (20 tahun permintaan kene reject beb!) akhirnya berjaya jugak aku mencapai impian.. hehehe.. setelah diperkenan oleh mak selaku jurutera projek dan adik aku topek yang gagah perkasa sebagai sekutunya, akhirnya projek ini dimulakan. Arkitek resepi diterajui oleh nenek Meni yang telah berjaya mengekalkan keaslian adunan dodol gula hangus ni (rupenye ade beberape jenis lagi dodol ni, ade yg. original (lame gile nak masak katenye), dodol kerisik, durian dan yang sewaktu dengannya).

Pepagi lagi lepas hantar isteri tercinta ke airport LCCT, aku terus bergegas mendapatkan bahan - bahan mengikut preskripsi yang diberi oleh nenek Meni.

1. Santan - 8 KG @ bersamaan 24 biji kelapa.

2. Gula - 8 KG (boleh ikut citarasa sendiri)

3. Tepung pulut- 3@4 KG (Projek ni guna 3 KG je)

Untuk memastikan kelancaran projek ini, radas ini mestilah disediakan terlebih dahulu.

1. Dapur gas

2. Tong gas - yang ade isi sekurang - kurangnye separuh.

3. Tungku

4. Kuali - (Wajan, kalau tak paham bahase Melayu)

5. Dayung

6. 2-lebih tukang kacau dodol yang gagah perkasa. (kalau kacak macam dalam gambar ni, satu kelebihan hehehe)

langkah seterusnya ialah dengan memanaskan 8 kilo gula tadi sehingga cair kemereh - merahan. kacau sekali sekala supaya tidak rentung. sampai la warnanya mencapai piawai (tak terlalu gelap) lepas tu masukkan 8 kilo santan dan 3 ketul gula nibung @ 5 ketul gula melaka sebagai perisa. kacau terus jangan ngengada nak berenti - sehingga menggelegak keseluruhannya. bile dah menggelegak dan gula dah hancur habis, masukkan bancuhan tepung pulut tadi (pastikan bertapis dan tiada ketulan. lepas tu kacau la sampai tak lalu sekurang - kurangnya 3.5 jam iaitu bersamaan bila dodol ni putus bila diangkat. masa terbaik ialah 4 jam. walaubagaimanapun, kalau dah penat, lepas 2 jam bolehla dimatikan apinye dan disambung bila dah tak penat (jangan lebih sehari la) itu la die kisahnya.

modal? tak sampai la RM 100 untuk menghasilkan kira - kira 15 KG dodol ni yang bernilai (RM 20 x 15 KG )=300.00. So siape yang berhajat nak meniaga dodol boleh la cube try test dulu. nak buat sekati dulu pon boleh kalau kuali kecik je, nisbahkan aje la ye..

sekian, renung - renungkan dan selamat beramal!

lady gaga, anyone?

wow! or should i cite it as "Ouch!". it has been four moon since the last time i write my web-log entry. (trying to express my guilt - so it can be an excuse - to make me believe that I'm getting better-as usual-which is not so true). like million of us procrastinating has infected our intestine, it cannot be removed because once we remove it, the pleasure of eating wouldn't have been the same, so we ought to keep it, just to satisfy our hallucination of how "good feeling" should be . The motivation to write this entry come while I'm writing other thing (which should have been complete by my last entry) which means that I've been putting off doing something (other word for procrastinate) in order to write this.. thats my dear reader, is how bad it is to me. Or may be this is my strategy of getting things done. So i need to have important task, and delayed it to make other things done. ouch..

enough with the dramatical intro. I've recently read an article written by Dr. Piers Steel, an organizational-industrial psychologist. He was comparing two types of motivational wisdom. One is from Rhonda Byrne the author of the 190 weeks listed in the New York Times Bestseller : The Secret (I've watched the documentary - it does save a lot of my time, so i can procrastinate it) and the other one is world most controversial artist - Lady Gaga.

Let me introduce you to the wisdom they both offer. If you have come across the knowledge of law of attraction, you might have an idea about Byrne works. Her theory is that whatever happen to you, it is because it is what you wished for. If you always think about debt, debt, debt, out of the solution, what you'll find - according to her - is more debt! same goes for the other things. so if you want to be let's say, rich, all you need to do is to be more specific about what you want, imagine it vividly, cut some picture if you have to and put it on the ceiling on your bed, so you'll see it every time you woke up in the morning or maybe at night when you have those creepy poor nightmare. And then, after some period of time, a month, a year, 10 years or may be 20, wallah! you'll find what you wished for at your disposal. just like that.

Now about the lady, this is her quotes "That's good that you won a lot of trophies, it's nice, but you know what? After I sell a bunch of records, I take all the platinum ones off the walls and pretend I haven't sold a damn one and I've got to go do it all again." yeah, controversial as she is, as Dr. Steel mention in his article. "she suggests that images of success (e.g., trophies) can take the place of actual successes (i.e., more victories). So instead of going out and making it happen, we reflect on past or imagined glory and do nothing. The symbol replaces the reality".

Now, how many of us or our colleague has been through this? we strive for something and when we got it, we lost our motivation and after a while we are back to square one. as an example, how many of us is doing all we can to collect money to fund our wedding because our saving is far from enough because we never had enough money to save. But somehow in few month we manage to get it! a sum that we never thought we can get. But what happen after that? some of us is going back to the old -i didn't have enough money to save-life. i heard some of my friend says this. some of my friend heard me saying this. :D If you are a Gaga fans, you'll need to put your wife somewhere that you couldn't find and act as if you never get married and repeat the process. hehehe..

So which one is your choice? let me offer my analysis.

according to Dr. steel, in a study conduct by Gabrielle Oettingen of New York University on the power of fantasy on everything including romance life and getting a job. This study involving 3 groups, A fantasy group (Byrne group), A control group (most of us group) and a Mental contrasting group (the GAGA group). The finding is interesting. They find that the GAGA group do best in life compared to the secret group. In fact, the secret group do worse than the control group!

eh? this is not my analysis! o.k here's mine. Using the theory of the secret, as a Muslims, i believe that most of our fate is predetermined by Allah. But we do have some rooms to make change as Allah cited in the holy Quran " Allah wouldn't change the fate of one race, until they changed it themselves." which means that Allah do gave us some space to make changes, so it is definitely wrong to say that once poor, forever will be. And listening to Dr. Hj. Fadhilah Kamsah's motivational CD's, he always remind the listener to have a good thought to Allah. Because Allah will give us, what we think He will give us. E.g, when a mom keep saying in her mind that her son is bad, that is what she will get. a bad son. I do have some experience about this. last year my wife suggested that i bought an MPV that was sold by her colleague that going abroad. i didn't take the suggestion seriously because it wasn't in my agenda of the year. But the idea is there. since then i do admire it, look at it every time i see it on road, imagine how it would look like if i decide to make it more personal. sometime i include it in my conversation saying that if have more "rezeki", i'm going to buy that MPV. it'll be convenient for my family. A year later, without having any idea's on how could i afford it at first, it become mine. And last week i rammed it onto a pedestrian buffalo that didn't use the zebra crossing. Maybe they're looking for a buffalo crossing but couldn't find it anywhere.. hehehe.. so its a combination of a fantasy (of getting the car) and God's will. (I do imaging that I'm going to crash into something before the actual crash. this is the second time the exact same thing happen to me before the accident - maybe that's how powerful fantasy or maybe coincidence might be).

to be continued....

Selangor Challenge

Hari ni nak cakap melayu je.. penat pasal baru balik kayuh basikal sejauh kira-kira 40 km di kuang sempena Selangor Challenge MTB Jamboree.. x larat nak cari ayat canggih - canggih (heh!) Kali kedua join jamboree, kali pertama jumpe trek se"adventure" ini, 2 kali putus rantai, sekali bocor, 2 kali kejang, berkali kali putus asa, bile menyesal je - jarak nak patah balik sama jauh dengan jarak nak abiskan kayuhan. walaupun rasenye dia tak bace blog ni, tapi saye nak berterima kasih kepada atok (pangkat dalam family, orang jawa mmg pentingkan susur galur ni. tapi mude je lagi) saye Abdul Qayyum Bin Hassan kerana sudi menghabiskan perlumbaan di tempat pertama dari belakang kerana membantu saya membaiki basikal. (repair basikal je dah ambik mase lebih kurang 15 minit, kali aje la dengan 3) Dan jugak memberi semangat untuk menghabiskan kayuhan.

Cabaran? bile dah banyak kali rosak, bak kate orang memude, mental pon dah pecah.. bile x de orang nak di jadikan pengukur, nak tengok had sebenar yang orang sebenarnya mampu lakukan.. mmg perjalanan terase makin mencabar (bahase mudahnye, bile kite tgk orang boleh, kite pon tercabar jugak, nak cube jugak kayuh). tapi akhirnya, tinggal kitorang berdua je, sweeper sibuk suh naik lori.. tapi mane boleh.. air muke kene jage.. (kalau ruzairi bace: bior kaki sakit krem banyak kali jangan sampai hati sakit kene kutuk ngan ko.. hehehe)

masa mula kayuh, mmg dah agak kedepan. sampai km10 - rantai putus. sebelum putus tu dok kate dalam hati :"musuh sebenar ialah diri sendiri, mesti kalahkan diri sendiri (yang nak berputus asa tu lah). so, kayuh la bagai nak gile, siap buat latihan mindfulness lagi (yang ni kite cerite lain kali) tapi bile dah macam2 jadi, cuaca pon dah panas.. lain pulak jadinye. hehehe..

Secara keseluruhannye, kayuhan kali ni memang berbaloi, bukan hadiahnya tapi pengalamannya. pemenang tempat pertama sampai dalam masa tak sampai satu jam (purata orang sampai dalam masa 2 jam). tapi tak la mencabar untuk dia, pasal mmg dah dia terer.. tapi untuk kitorang berdua perghhh...

Jadinya, pada jamboree yang mendatang, benih azam sudah ditanam, bior tumbuh dan bercambah. Latihan demi latihan dah di rencana, semoga dapat mencapai kedudukan 10% teratas.. aminn

hoodeii 2011

This is the third time that i'm writing this same log before somehow it perished due to technical error.. chet! Hoodeii = hooray + hadeiii. why do i pick this title? because while i have a lot of great things that i've planned with my wife (hooray), there are still some regret and unresolved thing from last year that somehow manage to chase my tail.

But being me, i'll always keep things as simple as it can be to keep my emotions at bay so i can think about other more important things like thinking and getting.. although my success rate on getting is somewhere around 20%, i believe that i've developed fundamental areas to help me boost more momentum this year.

What a great coincidence that great things happen to me in the end of the year, last year is my wife and her whole wonderful family, this year is my mountain bike.. (hehe) both of them show me what possible really mean and limit is somehow nowhere to be found. With Allah's permission and will, its only the matter of time and effort that will bring you to your dreams.

Anyway, happy new year to all dear reader. May Allah forgive our sin and give us His blessing, protection, health, wealth, guidance and everything good to us this year..

Promosi?

Ramai yang dah nampak gambar saya masuk radio Malaysia kelantan, ramai yang bertanya dan tertanya2.. apa kezadahnya (haeam zadah ialah bahasa urdhu.. haram jadah tak tau la mane usal usulnya)yang dibuat oleh budak didi ni masuk dalam konti, ade yang ingat saya dah tuka keje, ade yang ingat saya seorang tokoh MLM yang berjaya (HAHAHA!!), secara langsung atau tidak, cepat @ lambat, berita mengenai saya menjalankan training telah tersebar luas.. ada yang dah offer untuk buat training (bos aku je pon.. hehe).. sudahkah saya bersedia untuk ke peringkat seterusnya? jeng jeng jeng.......

Buruk @ baik, baik @ buruk perkara ini belum tahu lagi, apa2 pun perubahan dah mula terasa pada diri sendiri.. menjadi lebih bijak mengawal emosi dan yang penting, persepsi.. ada yang menjuih bibir.. heh! ye la tu! hakikatnya kalau orang kata sekarang saya ni teruk.. diorang tak jumpa saya 5 tahun lepas.. hahaha.. ingat sendiri2, sendiri mau ingat.. badan sendiri, sendiri yang tahu.. bagi saya sekarang apa yang penting bukan sahaja persepsi sendiri, tetapi persepsi orang lain dan bagaimana mengawalnya... pengawalnya ialah pemimpin terbilang.. pemimpin paling terbilang, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W...

Salah satu teknik dalam NLP ialah mengenali konteks, dan modelling.. tak salah rasanya untuk gunakannya bagi mengenali Rasulullah S.A.W.. jadi ini adalah matlamat terbaru dalam program saya yang akan datang.. NLP + CBT + Sunnah Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.. semoga saya akan berjumpa dengan guru yang terbaik.. insyaAllah..

Pilih kawan

Orang selalu kata, kalau kawan ngan pencuri, jadi pencuri, kawan ngan ustaz jadi org alim, aku nak tambah sikit.. kawin ngan doktor, masuk radio!!! hahaha.. hari ni dalam sejarah masuk dalam konti Radio kelantan, selalu kalau dengar Dr. Azman Ching masuk dalam radio, aku mesti teruja pasal org yang aku kenal masuk radio.. tapi hari ini... hins hins hins.. (bunyi nafas hidung kembang) walaupun suara aku tak masuk langsung la..

seperti biasa bile aku meneman wife aku buat program ape2 pon mesti orang akan suspek aku ni doktor gak.. x terkecuali la kali ni.. siap promote nak iklankan program motivasi aku lagik.. hehe.. agaknye aku boleh belajar dari situasi ni untuk aku sebarkan kepada sesiapa yang mempunyai masalah inferiority complex bile org kaitkan suami ni dengan pekerjaan isteri yang jauh lebih tinggi tarafnya.. macamana nak coping contohnye...

Tapi cerita pasal tu lain kali la.. nak bergembira dulu.. untill next time.. daaa!!!

Tahniah!!

Tahniah kepada diri saya sendiri dan jugak untuk wife tercinta, Azizah Bt. Othman kerana berjaya menamatkan course 3 hari kepada guru2 Pemulihan Dalam Komuniti (PDK) di kelantan. Ini adalah 3 hari penuh ujipandu kerjaya impian saya sebagai trainer.. seperti yang dijangkakan, saya belajar lebih banyak daripada course ini daripada peserta... ?(hahaha.. mendalam nih)..

Dan hari ini saya bernekad untuk menggunakan dengan segera pengajaran yang saya dapati dengan cara membuat modul NLP untuk course 2 hari penuh.. chayok!!

Ramadhan

Kalau nak kate ilham, hari2 pon ade... kalau ikot ati nanti binase, memandangkan ini bulaN POSE.. Ya Allah, ilhamkanlah yang luar biase.

nak kuat mudah aje, angkat besi otot kenyal, nak berani cam susah je, risiko besar jiwa mau kental.

kata orang macam macam, kalau diikut tak jadi keje, asalkan usahanya tak haram, ape jadi redah aje...

hari tu terdengar satu ustaz cakap yang bulan pose ni rezeki orang beriman akan bertambah.. bile dengar tu dan check balik income bulan ni yang merudum sesuai dengan keadaan ekonomi semase (walaupun PM kate ekonomi dah baik) ditambah pulak ngan bonus yang cume 1/3 dari biase.. tetibe je rase kerdil.. (ye la kalau beriman =rezeki bertambah, rezeki berkurang = ?)

Tapi sejak malam tadi, mencuranh2 idea dan ilham lengkap dengan perasaan confidentnye.. akhirnya aku insaf yang duit gaji dan bonus tu cume ape yang bos bagi.. dan boz punye rezeki pon bukan la dari die sendiri.. kan semuanya dari Allah.. sesungguhnya idea, ilham, peluang dan keyakinan tu kan lebih berharga dari semua yang bos aku mampu bagi.. subhanAllah.. insaf.. insaf..

The enterprise

Captain’s log:
Sunday, August 08, 2010.
Plus minus 30 minutes before departure from Kota Bharu bus station. My beloved wife is doing her isya’ prayer. Since afternoon, without any conscious reason, I feel so close to Kelantan.. almost like home. I was chasing the feeling all over my body to ask what’s going on, but the feeling keep avoiding me. This feeling is no alien to me –I had the same feeling some time in my life-that whenever it comes, the craving for personal freedom and independence increases… before it goes back down again (off course. Hehe). It has touched the threshold few times but not strong enough for me to make a big decision.. my past decision to take a baby step in my action has always dictated my decision making machine... Then I realize also few times in my life that it would be easier if we know what would happen in the future, when we take that huge step, then there will be no hesitation for us isn’t it? I believe that almost everyone in this world has experienced this (if not where the job of fortune teller come from?). But when Allah prohibited us from fortune telling or fortune knowing, for me it’s simply that Allah wants us to take risk!
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Hmmm.. Well I guess that’s it.. the feeling that I’ve got this evening until now.. maybe that is my guts telling me “ Hey dude! Come on get out there and get some risks.. Get the life you have always dreamt off. Just like the old days when you always love street racing and all those adventures you have had at that time. Just maybe in a different field and a different game.. but with me, GUTS!, that you locked deep down here.. for such a long time….” Yeah maybe it’s right.. fear has crippled me from making any big decision…. Until… hmm, I am hoping that it is as easy as saying “now”…
Thinking
Thinking
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Well, maybe it is!

THE TRAINING (the blues side of the training

New exciting experience has proved itself to change one’s life as it does to me today. 17 July 2010 must have been meaningful to many of us, be it pleasant or a complete disaster… or both. For me this is a date I want to remember as good as I remembered my wife’s birthday because today is the first day I deliver NLP training. Alhamdulillah, Allah must have blessed me a lot by giving me such a sweet, cheerful and sporting audience from Kumpulan Angkatan Muda YPU (KAMY). Although thrilling, excitement has done a very good job on releasing dopamine hormone at a very right time and a very high level. Lost in time is a new predicate for me today as what I figured out could take less than one hour has beaten 2 hour timeline easily and craving for more! State, now mean a lot to me as in this short seminar I’ve experienced a time when I operate at a very disadvantaged, uncertain and anxious state especially in the beginning of the talk, and I found that I couldn’t bring out most of the fact that I’ve rehearsed many time before. But as I get more comfortable and start to operate in a state of certainty, all the ideas popped out one by one.. easily and smoothly. Suddenly everything become crystal clear and I began to deliver the talk as if I’ve done a lot of it before.
3 weeks before this training take place, I began to study the module from my practitioner program and try to come out with a simpler but intensive yet easy to understand module. How am I surprised with my ability to compressed 8 days training into 2 hours! And I start to believe that something has gone wrong. There’s must be something that I’ve missed. And this wisdom of knowing what I do not know has brought me to a higher understanding of NLP after watching many videos and some reading from book written by the earlier and more popular NLP expert and also book from the founder of NLP. Having a basic knowledge of it make things easier and natural.
Whatever happen today be it bad or good, I hope that I succeeded in giving them the idea of how great they’re inside and how easy change can be made, if they’re willing enough

Sports, at last..

About a year ago, i was wondering why is that that I'm not as good as any other guys when compared in sports activities.. what does these guys have that give them access to almost to any type of sports available on earth.. even if they are not used to it before. While this thinking goes on and on, i committing myself to be good in playing carom as it is the most available games in my workplace.. after a while I'm getting good at it.. i even developing some personal shooting techniques that some of my colleague's reckon it as my "blagak" shot. After a while i become a good player from nothing! for those who not used to plating this game "kedai kopi" style, i tell you that it is the most painful place to start, we are yelling, cursing, de-motivating and bragging to each other. For those with weak heart, a small fight is irresistible.. and it least likely for those weak hearted fellas to comeback to the battleground ( i make it sound good isn't it.. ha ha).

3 days ago my colleage and i was introduce to a game called "pentanque" and we have to get ready for a tournament in 2 days time! so I've got the chance to test my old theory that i cant be good in sport like other guys did, because those sport-friendly guys and i is now on par. For two days we do intensive training in this very fun game. throwing these RM 650 stainless steel balls to a small balls they call jack to get as close to it as possible, and believe me its not as easy as it sound. each of us only got three balls and we need to risk it sometimes to clear the opponent's balls. On the tournament dayw e manage to go to second round before the school boys (they represent the school in this game) defeat us.. very thin winning that is.. i can see they sweating like crazy when we catch up with them so quickly. Now, what i found was.. these sport guys is no better than me is term of understanding and playing the game. Sometimes i notice that i can make better shot then them.. so what is making them better?

its our state.. sometimes we take outside information, yelling, cursing, DE-motivating and bragging too personally that we make it real for us. Its the psychology inside us. its our physiology that affect us. when we operate in weak physiology then we'll be as good as weak! its what we are focusing on that 's matter.. are we focusing on the game, or the cursing? its our internal voice... its all because of us.. and yet we continue to blame the environment....

Unleash the power within!

The price of a procastination

several years ago.. (at least it seems that long) i was forced to have multiple bank account for my salary purpose. One of it has an ATM card while the other don't. That's mean that i need to go to the bank and transfer the money from one account to the other in order to have the freedom of using the ATM card. And its really a hassle. So i decide to use online banking. and it took me 2 years or so to create the account. That mean that in 2 years i had to Que to transfer the money, another 2 Que to pay the bills (one for celcom and one for the rest of it) that is equal to approx. 3 hours per month, which means that i had wasted around 72 hours of my life by queuing.. just for the sake of procrastinating.

Now lets count that into something else. if i want to read a full English book, it'll take me around 10 hours to finish it. =72/10 = 7.2. if i had read 7.2 book of hypnotism, i might have the skill to make rapid induction by now. If i can make RM 25 sales per hours, i should have 72*20= Rm 1800.. hmm.. that should be enough to repaint by car.. or if i put it into a fixed deposit with 7% profit (Islamic), i will have extra RM 252.. and the list will go on and on..

To create an account took me around 5-10 minutes. Procrastinating it, make me lost so many.. and that is just a small area of my life.. just imagine what will happen if i take care of myself and take control of my life.. deciding on some thing good and directly applying it... continuously.. hmmm.. i suspect that the future will be a lot better than now..