Thanks -PINK-

By the time I'm writing this log, our marriage is aged 2 years and 9 month. Its a commitment blessed with happiness and all the great thing - except a child. After numerous test taken, there is no clear indicator on whats stopping us from having one - from medical point of view. Although deep inside we believe that everything that happen or not happen is only on Allah's will.

But since Allah gave us the liberty to work on what we want and pursue anything that within the limit of Islam, we decided the try the aided reproduction technique, IVF. if you want to know more about this technique, you can always browse for it. There's so many articles related to this topic. Its the non written stuff, the sacrifice of a woman in having a baby. And the torture wasn't started during this treatment. Its logged way long before this. From fellow friend and relatives that keep asking, from the age that adding the numbers and reduce the possibilities, husband that like to jokes about polygamy (joke only lah!), making the right choice and many more.

Its a nice Wednesday morning, we are referred to Hospital Kuala Terengganu on an appointment set by Hospital Kota Baharu O&G department - to see an aided reproduction expert. This is the only hospital that provide IVF service in east coast area. After a quick interview and analysis, they found out that my wife menstrual cycle is suit for the soonest folical retrieval clinic. Simply mean that we can skip a 3 month drug program just to make sure that the ovulation day suit the clinic date! But I'm sure that they have a very good reason for that and I'm glad we don't have to endure that treatment. Of course there's many things to be rearrange in the short while. Alhamdulillah we manage to sort everything out.

Then there's the mean of this posting. I would like to thank my wife - Azizah Othman, for her willingness to take most of the pain and challenges during the process. Takings plenty of drug shots directly to the stomach every night for the past 2 weeks, enduring the pain after the eggs retrieval while having her regular ear pain, the humiliation of the treatment itself and many more unexpressed downsides just to have 20% chances to have more pain in the labor room, to have the most wonderful gift of life.

If you're reading this, i just want you to know - no matter we succeed or not, now or in any time in the future. I will always love you.

Dum BaDa Dum

Welcome to my new looked - old blog. It has been stalled for quite a while due to a technical error partly and human error mostly. After finding out the solution, I've quickly made all necessary changes including changing the way it looks. And yeah, it does give me some kind of good feeling looking at it as it represent me in more delicate ways. If i can put a smell on it, i would use CK one. Its really a wonderful restart. And its not going to stop here. Changes will continue to the owner of the blog, hehehe.. for quite some times I've dream of reforming stuff around me. I really like things to be colorful, vibrant, sound nice, smell good, feel great and taste wonderful. But being human, i cant stop from having an inner world that restricting me from having all of these. Despite having a peaceful feelings towards those that have this kind of surrounding, I've failed to make any necessary change. Its like standing in the land of dullness while looking across the world of Alice in wonderland.

So, enough with the DULL speech. I,m going to cheer my life now. And should yours!